Hi guys, I hope you have all been well. Thank you all for your ongoing support and patience. Today I’d like to talk about my life’s meaning.

For about 4 months I was scratching my head daily asking myself, what am I here to do. On this planet. So of course I kept listening to my motivational videos and one guy said to spend 20 minutes in the morning in deep thought and ask those questions.

So every morning I woke up and asked the universe or god. Whatever it is you believe. But I just flat out asked. What am I on earth for? What am I supposed to do?

For a while I got no answers that I liked and one morning I had a thought. It was like a whisper. You need to focus on your kids. That voice got louder every day.

So I started spending a lot more time with them. I started reading occupational therapy books and speech therapy books and tried to learn as much as I could about how I can help them.

You see when I found out about my daughters diagnosis. I broke in a way I can’t describe. I went really bad for a while and then one day I got that angry I decided to turn my pain around and use that energy rather than let it use me.

I’ve said it before. I had read 1 maybe 2 books in my whole life before this point. Since then I have read atleast 50 books. Just 40 minutes per day. In 2 years from now that will be 100 books. Every book I read I learn more and more and become more aware.

Don’t get me wrong. I’ve had my bad days and weeks but I then try to get back up. I just keep plugging away at it. Going forward I’d like too share in my blogs some of the books I’ve read and what I’ve learnt from them.

But going back to my kids. The relationship I have with them now is unbelievable. My baby girl adores me and I love her and my son so much and I’m sure most parents understand what I mean. She is still non verbal but lately I’ve noticed it sounds like she’s trying to talk. That gives me so much hope.

I now truly believe she will one day, hopefully soon start talking. My daughter is 5 and a half and my son just had his 18th birthday and I’m so proud of him. At his age I was a complete stuff up. I look at him and am so proud of the young man he is. He is a truly good person. He has a great soul.

Guys if you have any good book recommendations that you’d like to tell me about can you please post it in the comments below. I’m always looking for new good books to help me improve everyday.

Also if you have any questions please feel free to ask. Thank you so much for your time and please stay safe.

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Hi I’m Jamie, I want to talk a bit about myself and the the power you can get from recycling your pain or trauma. I’ve had two extremely traumatic events happen in my life. The first one was 16 years ago. That trauma was finding out my son had cerebral palsy. Now if my son reads this I want him to know that the depression I had through this time was not his fault. It was because I wished I could have his disability; for me to have it instead. I actually remember getting off the bus after work one day and I looked up to the sky and said “God please take his disability away from him and give it to me instead.” It got me into a massive depression and I had 16 years of losing jobs. Being stuck in bed for weeks at a time and it broke me. I felt so down I didn’t want to live anymore at times. And yes I contemplated taking my life many times. As time went on it got a bit easier to deal with and then I started feeling better. Then I had another traumatic event that literally broke me in a way that I can’t explain. My daughter was diagnosed with severe Level 3 Autism, completely non-verbal. I then became homeless and three days after I felt that pain, I had this feeling in my gut that I cannot explain. I think it was a higher power telling me to get up. That day was June 15 2018. That day I turned my pain into this extreme determination to transform my life. Since then I went from homeless and back to winning my family back; my wife and daughter. At the time I was doing a job I hated, it was minimum wage and I was always broke. I am a qualified electrician and had left the industry for five years. Using the power of that pain I made a DECISION to go back and work as an Electrician. Before that I always wanted to do that but was too petrified to do it. After making that decision I found a job as an electrician, failed straight away and felt down for a few days. Then I thought of WHY I was doing this and tried again and have successfully worked as an electrician since then and now I feel very comfortable working as an electrician. In later blogs I want to explain the power of your WHY. I will post more blogs around this subject as I genuinely want to help as many people as I can to recycle their pain and harness it to take them to a level in their life where they feel amazing again. I see so much pain out there and I want to help. If I can help even one person from my blogs then I will be very happy. I also want to note that I’ve never written anything before, blogs included so this is a first for me so please bare with me as I will not be the most professional blogger. I’ll always speak from my heart. Take care for now and I hope you read my next blog.